男人，你的名字是賤人。
給少少反應，就開始玩失蹤。
七天后，苦經掙扎，唯有幻想你給差人拉才懂放手。
delete你電話，delete你msn, 但你偏偏選擇這會兒現身。
你到底想點？
男人，你話你是不是犯賤？
一星期無聲無跡，以爲你去了月球採集岩石樣本；或同希拉利奧巴馬一齊癲去選總統以致無暇致電， 誰知你的藉口了無新意，居然是趕公司report。
恢復通訊后，又吊兒郎當地說“可能我weekend或下星期約你去街"...阿姐這邊廂好想除拖鞋扔你，你以爲本公主是好敷衍的？
真心的男人, 就算怎忙，也會發個短訊保持聯係。
認真的男人，就算怎累，也會先道歉才禮貌地再約你出街。
這個男人，是賤人，要不得。
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Sunday, April 20, 2008
inspired by curiosity
My recent two trips to Bangladesh's Chittagong and Malaysia certainly Sabah's Kota Kinabalu have been eye-opening at first and inspiring the next, to say the least.
From the last several hundreds of pictures I have taken for that two trips, I have become more flexible in controlling my digital camera which is six years old.
The image quality is sharper and contrast of colours are also stronger.However, there is a far bit away for me to go in terms of capturing what I see straight onto a picture.
Having said that, the inspiration I have got from taking pictures for these two trips had helped me on many different levels. I found myself more prone to taking a step back, tilting my head a little bit,walking to
the back of objects or even squatting down...whatever I do to let my eyes following the curiosity.By doing so, I think I'm gradually learning to look at the world in the eyes of photographer. Hence, pictures with unusual angles can be generated.
This has not only helped me with taking better pictures, but also contributed to my life philosophy.
I used to be a very tensed person who was extremely stubborn, negative and not easily pleased.
I am now able to appreciate matters, objects and people more after gaining perspectives from taking steps back and looking things at another angles.the world is a lot more beautiful that way and it helps you to really get into the present moment, appreciating the power of now instead of worrying what else is lacking to make
the present moment more perfect.
The World is under your feet, it's up to you how to explore it.
Friday, December 28, 2007
when am i going to learn?
In the first week of my two weeks holiday,I have successfully-
1.fucked up my own biological clock.it's over 7:30am and am still awake.
2.watched all dvds available at home.
3.disappointed mom for not going to gym nor being on diet.
4.finished a book and now starting my second on john grisham's the client.
5.overslept for 12 hours a day.
6.had pizza two nights in a row.
7.talked to a gd old friend from overseas via the net.
8.dumped a really hot "friend" whom we have been lusting for each other in the last 10 months(very Gd!).
9.trashed self confidence level to a record low.
10.relaxed self from office nightmares.
11.practically lived like a scum bag.
I have not-
1.read 5 books as planned.
2.received any Christmas present.
3.begun writing two features stories for work and sending photographs to editor.
4.exercised.
5.watched my diet.
6.gotten laid.
7.cleaned up bedroom.
8.left home for three days.
9.found love.
10.drunk enough water.
11.gone to Beijing for a snowy Christmas and visited grandma as planned due to laziness.(beginning self-hatred now)
in the coming one week, i shall-
FINISH the damn features and send off photographs or i will be in deep shit!(starting to panic)
1.fucked up my own biological clock.it's over 7:30am and am still awake.
2.watched all dvds available at home.
3.disappointed mom for not going to gym nor being on diet.
4.finished a book and now starting my second on john grisham's the client.
5.overslept for 12 hours a day.
6.had pizza two nights in a row.
7.talked to a gd old friend from overseas via the net.
8.dumped a really hot "friend" whom we have been lusting for each other in the last 10 months(very Gd!).
9.trashed self confidence level to a record low.
10.relaxed self from office nightmares.
11.practically lived like a scum bag.
I have not-
1.read 5 books as planned.
2.received any Christmas present.
3.begun writing two features stories for work and sending photographs to editor.
4.exercised.
5.watched my diet.
6.gotten laid.
7.cleaned up bedroom.
8.left home for three days.
9.found love.
10.drunk enough water.
11.gone to Beijing for a snowy Christmas and visited grandma as planned due to laziness.(beginning self-hatred now)
in the coming one week, i shall-
FINISH the damn features and send off photographs or i will be in deep shit!(starting to panic)
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
christmas agony
it's the same old cigarettes smell seeping through winter's cold air in my bedroom. no turkey, no brandy butter pudding during Christmas in my house. hi everyone, i'm 26 and am still single.
a mouth watering hot date had turned cold last night. should have never brought over that 6 hours movie "the best of youth" to watch at his place. should have never met him at the first place anyway. that six-hour time frame would have allowed plenty of bull shit excuses for some intimacy acts or some sort of flirtations.but there was nothing.it turned out to be six hours of agony, to be exact, of me hoping he would lean over. i was staring at the hot Italian actors in the movie and sitting on the other couch,half drunk and agonizing.My mouth watering hot date was figuring out the plots and guessing if the characters were to be ended up banging each other. Hello?!?
i did it again. don't you just hate it when you are once again landed in this vulnerable position and yet, can't let go cos you are so damn into him?
shall never fall for handsome men again.
a mouth watering hot date had turned cold last night. should have never brought over that 6 hours movie "the best of youth" to watch at his place. should have never met him at the first place anyway. that six-hour time frame would have allowed plenty of bull shit excuses for some intimacy acts or some sort of flirtations.but there was nothing.it turned out to be six hours of agony, to be exact, of me hoping he would lean over. i was staring at the hot Italian actors in the movie and sitting on the other couch,half drunk and agonizing.My mouth watering hot date was figuring out the plots and guessing if the characters were to be ended up banging each other. Hello?!?
i did it again. don't you just hate it when you are once again landed in this vulnerable position and yet, can't let go cos you are so damn into him?
shall never fall for handsome men again.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
christmas joy
I don't remember what Ramansh looked like nor understand him much on the phone because of his accent. but i guess there isn't much to understand cos he calls me every year at the same time for the same thing:wishing me a merry christmas.
Ramansh was barely 18 when i first met him in a press conference in 2005. He's a asylum seeker fleeing persecution from his home country in South Asia.
besides his annual christmas wish,Ramansh once rang last year and told me he was arrested by police for not having valid identification and overstaying. Silly Ramansh thought a young reporter might be able to help him out of the situation but he had no idea how influential-less i am.all i could do was to refer him a social worker.
today, i received my usual simple and neat christmas phone call from ramansh. only this time, there's a sense of joy attached to his greeting.
Ramansh's refugees' claim has finally been approved by the United Nation Higher Commissioner for Refugees in Hong Kong. In about three weeks' time, he would be able to find out where his new home will be.
I am overjoyed and yet, was put in shame by him.
Despite of Ramansh's shortcomings as an asylum seeker in Hong Kong, his self-less soul is not restrained by the situation he's in. Most would think Ramansh's daily struggle for the most fundamental human rights to survive would leave him nothing much to offer others.But Ramansh has demonstrated a precious side of humanity.
His untiring christmas greetings, despite being short and hard to understand at times, are more sincere than many spam greetings I got from a lot of my non-refugees friends. The simple act of his has brightened up my lonely winter holiday. I can't help but wonder how come a man like man would still have energy to spread the extra love. On the other side, me, is sitting at home watching dvds all day and whin about my own situation. He really puts me in shame!
I would just like to take this chance and make my stranger-friend Ramansh a toast of the new year: To a new life ahead,Ramansh, all the best!
Ramansh was barely 18 when i first met him in a press conference in 2005. He's a asylum seeker fleeing persecution from his home country in South Asia.
besides his annual christmas wish,Ramansh once rang last year and told me he was arrested by police for not having valid identification and overstaying. Silly Ramansh thought a young reporter might be able to help him out of the situation but he had no idea how influential-less i am.all i could do was to refer him a social worker.
today, i received my usual simple and neat christmas phone call from ramansh. only this time, there's a sense of joy attached to his greeting.
Ramansh's refugees' claim has finally been approved by the United Nation Higher Commissioner for Refugees in Hong Kong. In about three weeks' time, he would be able to find out where his new home will be.
I am overjoyed and yet, was put in shame by him.
Despite of Ramansh's shortcomings as an asylum seeker in Hong Kong, his self-less soul is not restrained by the situation he's in. Most would think Ramansh's daily struggle for the most fundamental human rights to survive would leave him nothing much to offer others.But Ramansh has demonstrated a precious side of humanity.
His untiring christmas greetings, despite being short and hard to understand at times, are more sincere than many spam greetings I got from a lot of my non-refugees friends. The simple act of his has brightened up my lonely winter holiday. I can't help but wonder how come a man like man would still have energy to spread the extra love. On the other side, me, is sitting at home watching dvds all day and whin about my own situation. He really puts me in shame!
I would just like to take this chance and make my stranger-friend Ramansh a toast of the new year: To a new life ahead,Ramansh, all the best!
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